[gallery]Is this my imagination that I still smell smoked even in Berlin?, after a week from smoky sauna in Estonia? It can't be true.

The smoky sauna was an amazing experience. The countless numbers of stars in the black sky, people jumping into a cold pond, drinking beers and going back to sauna to get smoked, mix gender, I felt shy but it seemed very natural thing to do.

This is not all did in Moks, though. I was very isolated in the forest at the beginning. I have never been this isolated. And I nearly had whole one month all for myself, no disturbance. Time there was just for my work and figuring out the direction in my life, which very much reflected onto my work. I sat in front of the computer all day and working on a image with Photoshop. When I got tired, I went for walk in the forest and field for several hours. I felt nature there. Nature in Estonia, I felt it close rather than as a object to over take. I felt with nature, the energy from nature, sky, land, forest and water. It may be to do with how pagans here respect nature, such as positive energy circle in the forest. There was an amazing coincident happened with my work and this circle. The day I made circles in my image, a local artist, Peeter Laurits, took me to the circle in the forest.

I have realized in the forest that we all need very basic energy to live. And we all have that in ourselves and also we need energy from outside to let that inside energy to come out. It is just like a seed has all the energy to grow in oneself and still needs sun to let that happen. John and I talked about this with the energy in quantum theory as well, if I remember it correctly.

Art is to represent this energy whatever the form we like. Every artist can pursue this individually, and that is great thing about art that we can all find our own way.

Living in a city and society, it is easy to forget about facing the limits of what human can make, compared with what nature can do. Nature is bigger than us and same time, we all have it in ourselves as our origin of energy. Art is to transform this energy and exchange with others.

Thanks to Evelyn, John, Mari and many other friends in Moks,

Mamoru Tsukada
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